Tuesday, May 16, 2006 maybe i'd go drinking tomorrow. aris asked me to find him at rw if im not working. before that is dinner with j. and i don't know. tired from a lack of sleep. hate 9-5pm school days. tomorrow is 11-6pm which is equally bad, if not worst because penny thong is taking the last part ): its official, i hate school. its official, i hate singapore. totally can't wait to get out of poly. this is killing me. im suffering and getting into depression. there's just NOTHING in poly. it's a fucked up crappy place. i miss st nicks. we were like one big family. i miss toufu and hugger. i miss me.
feel like banging my head against the table. stop this madness going on inside. or picking up the knife in the kitchen and cut myself. am i alive? but no, i am not going to do this kind of stupid acts cos i am stronger than that. i will be fine, once i leave singapore. wish i was back in canada. how many times have i said that. hold me. guess its not for me. get me out of here please. just leave me alone. go away.
loved my brother's birthday cake. it's yummy with hazelnuts and loads of chocolates! :) lazy to post the photos tho. but yeah, off to bed and another day of schooling. one day down! & hope i don't end up with another fucking mess on my hands tomorrow. somehow i always manage to do the wrong thing.
i still don't understand,
WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY.
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